{ LOVE @ X T Y N E R A . O R G }

people that matter.

• Posted by drea on May 14th, 2008 filed in Movie Reviews, Reflections, Treants
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i think without God’s perspective of love in view, people get very self centred and selfish. its like this natural degenerative process because we’re human with our own desires.

i don’t ever want to lose sight of that perspective ever again.

these few days i feel so damn lethargic, but you know when you spend everyday at home alone in your room doing the same things, having the same routine over and over again..it just sucks. you spiral down into the feeling of depression and you don’t even know it until things go wrong.

everything i built up with people around me that matter, i didn’t even notice it breaking apart and falling to pieces. didn’t even make much of an effort, didn’t even notice.

and yesterday, it just reminded me how it was before when we were happy and treasuring quality times we spent together, when stan and i fell out =(

i guess it just comes from all the slothing around as i wait for my deferment and stuff.

i kept putting away finding a part time job because i thought i would have less time for stan, lissyboo and funky friends, but apparently i thought wrong. i don’t think i’m spending more time with them at all now even though i’m so free.

just wasting time idling my precious days away. pfft.

i’m sorry =( especially to stan, cause i really haven’t seen him alot and i guess i could have tried harder to find him, maybe not everyday but some days..since i’m the more free one.

i think even though i’m at home so much, in the daytime they are always out working, and in the evenings when they come home i’m too absorbed in my own stuff i hardly get to spend time with them.

sometimes when you stop spending time with the people that matter, slowly you start distancing from that person, and misunderstandings start to occur, things start going wrong on the surface because both parties stop trying to care for one another and it just goes BOOM! before you even know.

you don’t even hear the silent ticking of the impending explosion that is coming, but it is ticking. every tick brings you further and further away from ever salvaging the situation

its really not about who’s right or wrong. it’s about doing what’s right now. what’s important. finding a way to keep what we have and not lose everything we’ve been through..everything we shared, to just something like this.

i’m glad i have this chance to work things out with stan. Thank God.

less idling, less late nights. more rest, more plans, more bonding.

i’m getting too old to be running full cycle over and over again.

i love you guys in my life and hanging out was fun. if only stan came but we were just going through a rough patch. there will be other times for sure! Get Smart! Indiana Jones!!

we’re not going to just give up like that. because it matters so much more.

i’m grateful. really! and i’m glad i have friends who feel that i matter so much to try to always reach out to me to talk to me. i’ll try to MIA less. oops.

thank you so much lissyboo for staying up so late with me to hear me ramble when you have work the next day. -hugs- what could i do without you?

on a sidenote, speed racer was cool!! who gives a damn what critics say! I SAY ITS NICE! BUAHAHA! and it was really nice to hang out with lissyboo, agent potato (top secret undercover cop. name cannot be revealed), chewylongdick, harry and eli!

i think our strange sense of humour was annoying the people from the row above and below, especially when we suan and burst out laughing whenever Rain talks. HAHAHAHA! hay, mai nam iz lain.

he totally cannot pronounce properly especially when he rambles the long sentences out. i had to read chinese subtitles in order to understand him for pete’s sake! LOL!!  i don’t understand why his face so big on every poster and web banner for speed racer because he wasn’t even that important in the show. i think it’s just to “sell” the movie better to his fan base. eww!! the movie was so much better and i don’t think its anything to do with Rain being in it and definitely doesn’t need to use him to lure people over!

but then again, all the critics dislike it so….

….

i’d bet they dislike it cause of Rain being in it. HAH! ew ew ew ew ewwwwwwwwww.

hmm..i don’t mind watching it again and liesl wants to buy the dvd and kartina(nope nope this is not agent potato you are mistaken!!) wants to illegally download the movie just so she can screenshot pictures to put totally-omgwtfbbq-captions especially on the Rain screenshots to post on forums like EDMW. DOTS KARTY!!

i’d bet long also another one! lol! i’m sure if eli was a forum lurker and she came online alot(i don’t think she does or am i mistaken!?!? -in the dark-) she probably would be another one considering how loud she and kart were chortling together during the movie. rofl.

ok bai!~

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what is Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom’s cause
As I walk from earth into eternity